Lately my body has been feeling heavier. I'm over piled with work and stuff i don't have to time to do. Home work is piling and Sat prep is no longer much enjoyment to me i mean i didn't like it before but now it's just another weight on my face. I sometimes don't know what I am thinking and sometimes my mind trails off and later when i snap back into earth what i have said to people and done makes no sense and seems like jibberish. At the moment I am ignoring math homework. I have an F in math a .87 My mom keeps on pushing that. And although i want to get better and she means well it makes it seem even farther away from reach. I know i can do it but with this cloud over my head and sleep being my only oasis i can't i keep on wishing for a hurricane to hit so I can just sleep my days away. Sure, I love spending time with my friends and the boyfriend but sometimes i feel like i don't even have energy for that, I don't want to reduce my hours a week for huntington because that will prolong the process. I want to fall in a ditch and not come out until im just Jas again amy. I don't feel like myself anymore. I feel like.. empty.
School. School. School. Sat prep. friends. Javier. School school school school... ect D;